Stuck in Phase One

While Ryan is starting to move into phase two, I am still stuck in phase one.  The days are fine when I take them one at a time, but when I read a blog from a certain someone that makes me realize I haven't been gone very long...It makes life a little harder. 

It's hard to be independent, or enjoy one's "freedom" when one has to still think about how his/her decisions will affect another person.  That's why long distance relationships are of the devil.  Seriously, the devil was bored one day and in his devil voice said to himself "Hmmm what is one more way I can torture mortals?  Ah!  Make them single in every way... except not.  That way they'll still have all the responsibilities of being in a relationship but still be alone! Mwahahaha-I'm so evil".  

Well I'm here to defeat this curse.  I am going to make the most of living on my own for the first time (and probably the last) in my life.  The plan is to regain the confident, independent, woman I was before I moved across the country and clung onto my boyfriend for dear life.  I think it's safe to say everyone is pretty confident and independent in and around college.  The world is your freaking oyster, and then you find out that you hate oysters...they're slimy.  

So here's some steps I'm going to take to regain that sense of self: 

1) Diet

Dukan Diet-If Kate Middleton can do it, so can I.  And she was made a DUCHESS by the end...so...

2) Exercise

3-5 maybe 6x a week-working out is a lot easier when you're fake-single

3) Journaling

Allow myself to fully digest my day.  

4) Keep an open & positive mind

Fewer judgements, more positive thoughts, good deeds...blah, blah, blah...

5) Try something new every week...

A new recipe, explore a different part of town, deface a national monument

No one should be responsible for someone else's happiness.   If I have learned anything from living with RJN, it's how to make the most out of any situation and stay positive.  Yeah having someone you can depend on can make you less independent and sad to be alone, but I think it's cool that I'm going to regain mine by using what I've learned from the person I've depended on.  

P.S. Take your stupid "what happens in Vegas..." line and shove it.